'Why ME?!'

I have a bad habit of thinking that terrible things always happen to me. I KNOW that I am so blessed in many ways, but for some reason, when trouble comes about, I often become hopeless. And I complain that 'this always happens to me' or 'I am such a problematic person!'.

Well, to be truthful, my life has not exactly been the easiest. I was bullied most of my years in elementary school because of my weight. People were jealous of my marks and teased me frequently. Then, in high school, the eating disorder started. Last summer, I was hospitalized for anorexia. I nearly lost my life, and in the process, scared the life out of my family. The year before, I was involved in a terrible car accident that nearly took my life (which was not my fault, but the person who hit me was not caught - it was a 'hit and run').

So, as you can see, my life has had it's share of troubles. But at the same, I have to look at the other side of things - in all these times, God has helped me through it all. I have managed to get through the accident without any major injuries, I survived the challenge of ED, and I dismissed all the bullies in elementary school. If I got through all these major problems, I should feel strong, right? I should realize that problems are always solved - they just take time.

But sadly, this does not always happen. When a new problem comes up, I still complain. I complain that my life is full of troubles and challenges. I scream because I am so frustrated of life being so cruel to me. I become stressed because I am just sick of dealing with life's obstacles. And so, I forget about all the other times when I have had problems...and with time, these problems were resolved. Not because of me alone - but because of myself, God, and my family and loving friends.

Are you like this? Do you ever get so frustrated with troubles that you stop and think back to all the other times when life was crueil to you? It becomes frustrating, doesn't it? To think of all the times when life just did not go your way. And soon enough, we start saying 'why is life so hard? Why do these things always happen to me? People have it so much easier than me...'

And it might be true. Perhaps you ARE going through something harder than others. Maybe you DO go through many obstacles. But what I have learned is (yes, a cliche): what does not break yoy, makes you stronger. My dad always says, 'the stick that does not hurt you makes you stronger' and 'tough times never last'.

I used to HATE when he said these things. I would respond, 'MY TOUGH TIMES ALWAYS LAST!' or 'I DO NOT FEEL STRONGER!'. But now, as I grow and mature, I realize how blessed I am. I see that God always gets me through my challemges. I see that with the help of loving and supportive people, I can overcome any challenges that I face. Yes, my life may not be the easiest. Who's life is always happy and problem-free? But I am trying to get myself used to the fact that no matter how hard things may be, they get better. It may take longer than I want it to, but it DOES reolve itself.

Throughout my life, I have experienced SO many problems and challenges. Sometimes, it felt that things would NEVER get better. But they did. With faith, hope, support, strength, and perseverance, I was able to overcome these obstacles. Now it is just a matter of remembering this each time I face a new problem. I am strong and able to get over these challenges.

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