Sunday, 19 October 2014

My Book is Getting BIG Reviews!

I'm so blessed to say that not only is my book selling it is getting great reviews from some very influential people! See for one example!
Laura Collins is the founder of FEAST, an organization created to empower families to support loved ones and friends in overcoming an eating disorder. Laura has so kindly read my book and provided a generous and supportive review of it!

Mr. Brad Butt is a Member of Parliament. I was honoured to be able to meet with him a while ago in the summer to discuss eating disorders and how we can help the government of Canada support ED prevention and treatment. It was amazing to be able to sit with a government official to discuss how Canada can raise awareness about ED and mental health! What a way to use my journey and book to make a difference!

For all of you who have purchased and read my book, thank you so much. For those who haven't purchased a copy yet, you can odder one online and get it delivered right to your house! Please visit to get a copy and support my book,  myself, and the awareness of eating disorders and mental health! My book is helpful not only for those struggling with ED, but for anyone interested in reading about my personal experiences with anorexia (how I became sick when I was young, my journey in the ICU, and how I recovered afterwards). The book is also great for anyone who wants to learn more about ED or mental health in general - there are a lot of great tips and funny puns in there!

Lastly, thank you all for your support. Your care and love mean the world to me. I know I wouldn't have made it this far if it weren't for all of you. I am forever indebted to you all. And thank you, Lord, for giving me the courage and strength to recover, to share my story to the world, and to continue to advocate for others. It is amazing to see how our struggles truly do make us stronger and wiser.

"My grace is sufficient for you; My strength is made perfect in weakness" (1 Corinthians 12:9).

Sunday, 12 October 2014

Happy Thanksgiving!

To all those in Canada (or anywhere else celebrating!), Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours! This holiday allows us to all take the time to reflect on what we have and are thankful for. Of course, we really should do this everyday...but Thanksgiving is the one day that you should really take to count your blessings.
If I were to list all my blessings and what I'm thankful for, I would never be done! God is so good to us - He gives us so many blessings. One of these blessings is knowing that He loves us unconditionally. In honour of Thanksgiving, I have decided to list some things I am thankful for. I am also going to take this as an opportunity to let others know how thankful I am for having them in my life. Mom, Dad, and Nansy - I love you more than you can imagine. I am so blessed to have you three in my lifer. You never gave up on me, even in my worst days in the ICFU. To all my readers and friends, I am thankful for your love, kindness, encouragement, and support. I would never have come this far if it weren't for you all. And first and foremost, God, I am thankful for Your love and strength. I am thankful that You allowed me to experience struggling with ED, because this journey has made me who I am today. I thank the Lord for giving me the courage to openly speak about my experiences so that others can learn about ED and mental health.

Here are some more things I am thankful for...what is on YOUR Thanksgiving list? I am thankful for:
-life. Even though it gets challenging, I am thankful to be alive.
-my health. We all struggle with health issues, but it could always be worse. I am thankful for being able to breathe, eat, sleep, talk, see, walk, move, hear, write, etc.
-school and work. Life gets stressful, especially with work demands and assignments. But I am thankful for these, because my education allows me to interact with the world and to constantly use my brain to learn and teach others. I am thankful for work because it keeps me busy, allows me to use my talents and gifts, and provides money to pay the bills.
-my church and faith. I wouldn't be anywhere if it weren't for my faith, the Bible, and my church community. I am thankful to be a child of God.
-nature and the Earth. The Sun and stars are beautiful. Flowers make everything look pretty! Oceans show us God's power. The moon fills the sky at night. Animals are evidence of God's creation. Everything in nature reminds me of how much God loves us.
-challenges. Difficult as they may be, each new experience and struggle helps me grow and learn. I have become wiser and stronger because of every obstacle I have faced.

"Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good, for His steadfast love endures forever!" (Psalm 107:1)

Sunday, 5 October 2014

Watch My Latest Presentation: How God Works In Our Struggles

A few weeks ago, I was asked to do a presentation at a Hamilton church on my journey with anorexia, as well as how my faith strengthened me during this battle.

My struggle with ED has been the hardest thing I have ever experienced. There were many nights when I lay on my bed, wanting to eat - but being unable to do so. There were days when I wanted to die because I didn't know how long I could endure the suffering. In the ICU, I was dying from organ failure because of ED. All this time, I questioned how this could possibly lead to something positive. How could God use this for the good? Why was God allowing this to happen to me?

And then one day in the ICU, I was awakened by the nurses, who told me that the breathing tube was coming out because I had regained the ability to breathe. The impossible - living after this near-death experience - had happened. I wasn't dead. I was alive! At home, I began eating and gaining weight, I started a blog. But it was still very hard, and I wond4ered why this had happened to me. Why all the pain and sadness? Why was I going through this?

Two years later, today, I have a successful blog and a published book. I am graduating with my nursing degree in a few months. I am at a healthy weight and am happy. My story has reached many and has helped others learn about mental and physical health, and eating disorders. Many, including myself, praise God for these miracles. Now I see why I struggled, why I almost died. Now I understand that God truly uses our experiences for the good. We don't always understand the reason for our pain. We struggle and don't see how God can use this for any good. But one day, we will. And then we will realize that God never left us...that His plans for us are good.

So, please take the time to watch my presentation: It is just over half an hour long, but I guarantee that you will enjoy it and learn something from it. I hope this talk encourages you to keep fighting, and to never give up faith in God. You may not always realize the reason for your struggles...and that's okay. But never lose trust that God has a great plan for you...and He will never leave you alone.
One day, you will look back at this struggle and experience and realize what it has taught you, how it has strengthened your faith or the faith of others, and how you have become a stronger and wiser person because of it.


Saturday, 4 October 2014

Fr. Anthony Needs Your Help!

To all my readers, family, and friends:

This is a message from Fr. Anthony Messeh, who is a famous blogger and priest, as many of you know. I have posted on his blog very often, and his posts are always refreshing and encouraging!
His message this time is one of need. There is a building of a church in Virginia that needs some funding by October 12. Please realize that I am in no way pushing nor am I begging for any money for this church. However, as a member of the church, I know that without the donations and support of others, we would not be here today. These churches do not only spread God's message - they also minister to the poor, sick, homeless, etc - even those who are not Orthodox. Here are links to a video and website about the project:, and This website explains more about the project:

If you are able to donate an amount, no matter how small, please do so. If you are able to share the message and spread the world, please do so too.

And finally...thank you to everyone! Whether or not you directly donate to this cause, I am thankful for all the support and love you all show to me and others. If you are unable to donate, please consider praying a few prayers for the completion of this mission!

Sunday, 28 September 2014

EDs are NOT a Passion!

There was a recent article released by Western University that claims that anorexia nervosa, or eating disorders in general, should be called a 'passion'. According to the authors, a passion is something that one finds enjoyable, but can be destructive in excess. (See for details).

Teen Mental Health Statistics [INFOGRAPHIC] | Paradigm MalibuNow, allow me to tell you what I think about this 'discovery'. EDs are mental illnesses. Some people think of ED as an addiction in that it becomes obsessive and difficult to stop or control. This I understand. My issue with defining ED as a passion is that a passion denotes something positive, something we love and strive to always follow. Now, EDs do become obsessive, and patients always strive to focus all energies and thoughts on the disorder. However, EDs are in no way, shape, or form enjoyable. ED is not something the patient loves. It is not fun, exciting, or life-enhancing. Calling ED a passion makes it seem that the patient enjoys the ED. But this isn't the case at all.

EDs are destructive. They are the number one killers among all psychiatric illnesses. They can cause severe organ damage, emotional pain, and other complications. Patients never choose to have eating disorders. But we can choose our passions. For example, I may find that I enjoy writing and am good at it. I make this my passion by constantly writing, looking for ways to improve my writing skills, etc. But no one ever chooses to have ED because it is fun or because they are 'good at restricting and losing weight'. There is a big difference between the two situations.

I also don't particularly like how the authors state that labelling ED as a passion will change the way we treat these serious illnesses. The authors say that thinking of EDs as a passion means that we see that patients can make decisions about the passion - the ED. But is this true? Not really. In most cases, the ED, as a mental illness, takes over the patient. The individual with ED is not able to make decisions on when to restrict food intake because it is not them in control, but the ED. The person with ED doesn't make a decision to binge, purge, or restrict. It is the ED. Likewise, the patient with ED cannot always make the decision to start eating and to recover. This takes time, and in many cases, treatment must start even when the patient doesn't fully accept or appreciate it. But if we called ED a passion, we would be saying that the person can make decisions on when to engage in the ED, when to stop, etc. And we know that this isn't true at all. We have seen time and time again that brain changes, along with hormonal and chemical influences, change the way a patient with ED thinks, acts, eats, etc. So really, the patient is under the control of the illness. It isn't a passion. It is an illness.

Why do we have to come up with different words to describe what an eating disorder is? Why cant society just accept that ED is a serious and deadly mental illness? Why do we need to bring in incorrect terminology and false ideas around this issue? It is enough to say that EDs are mental illnesses - and life-threatening disorders. This alone should be enough to make us understand that treatment, identification, and prevention need to start as soon as possible. Would you tell someone who smokes or drinks alcohol obsessively that they have a passion for smoking? No. Would you tell someone who has depression that they have a passion for feeling sad? No. So why is it alright to label ED as a passion? It isn't.

Perhaps instead of wasting research dollars, time, and effort on
finding new ways to label EDs, we should instead focus on why they occur, how we can prevent them, and the best ways to treat them. We should focus on how to support patients and their loved ones.
That kind of research and initiative is worthwhile. That's what will make a difference to the thousands of people living and battling eating disorders daily. Prevention, identification, and treatment. Not labelling. We all need to work together to make these changes - every little thing you say or do can make a big difference. Remember this quote on the image to the right - be kind. You never know what each person you meet is dealing with. Don't judge, don't blame, and don't stereotype.

Sunday, 21 September 2014

I was on TV! Watch my feature on CBC News!

Three weeks ago, I was contacted by a reporter from CBC Toronto, asking me if I could do a story on the increase in eating disorders that is occurring. Wanting to help, I readily agreed...not realizing that they wanted me to do the story the next day! Needless to say, it was a last-minute request. But being featured on TV AND raising awareness about ED and mental health? Who could say no?!
This news story is highly relevant to society and what is happening in our world today. Although short, the feature highlights the fact that there has been a staggering increase in the prevalence of eating disorders within the past few years. Unfortunately, this has not been met by an increase in treatment. Perhaps even more frustrating is that there is still a lack of knowledge and awareness on eating disorders, prevention, treatment, recovery, and mental health. There still exists stigma around issues such as mental health. My hope is that by speaking out, we can make a difference.

Please take time to watch this segment - it is only about five minutes long: (Please note: this aired two weeks ago on the CBC Toronto News at 6 and 11 pm, but the video was just uploaded - thanks sis!).

But the impact of the segment is not in its length. The impact lays in what we do after hearing the story. Do we go out and make a change? Are you willing to reflect on your own beliefs and knowledge around eating disorders and mental health? Are you prepared to educate yourself and others around you? Are you willing to help raise awareness that EDs are REAL, MENTAL, and SERIOUS illnesses?
I hope that you enjoy this little feature I did with CBC news Toronto. More importantly, I hope that it helps you and others learn about ED and mental health, and it makes a change. There is a lot of awareness on many physical health issues, but awareness of mental health issues is lacking. Why? Because we don't want to talk about our feelings and emotions. We don't want to appear vulnerable. It is easier to suggest physical treatments for heart conditions, cancer, etc. than it is for mental health issues, where treatment options may not be so obvious. Everyone, regardless of what health/other issue they are dealing with, deserves treatment, help, and support. They deserve to be cared for, to be empathized with, and to be understood.

Thank you, God, for giving me the courage and strength to speak up about my battle with anorexia. Thank you for showing me that every struggle, every tear, and every hurt happens for a reason. Thank you for using my struggle to raise awareness, and hopefully, to continue to help others. Thank you for never leaving any of us alone, for giving us hope and success. Please strengthen us to continue trusting You, even when times are rough. Please give us Your peace and allow us to see that though we may not understand what is happening now, we will one day. And then we will see that ' all things God works for the good of those who love Him' (Romans 8:28).

And thank YOU to all my friends, family, and readers. I would not have been here if it were not for all of the care, love, and encouragement you always provide me with. The time each of you takes to motivate me, to read my blog, to pray for me, and to help raise awareness makes a HUGE difference. I am so blessed to have all this support around me.