Tuesday, 3 June 2014

Published on NEDIC: Learning to 'love' food

I am again blessed to say that my work has been published - this time on NEDIC. The topic? Loving food. Well, at least, learning to 'accept' food as a normal part of everyday life. http://www.nedic.ca/blog/learning-love-food

As someone who has been VERY (very. very, very) sick with an eating disorder, I can tell you first hand how terrible food seems to be with ED. Food becomes something to be feared, something to be despised for fear of weight gain. The desire to remain thin overpowers all feelings of hunger and any possible enjoyment of food. It is not that I wasn't hungry. I was. But I couldn't eat.

Now, on the other side of the spectrum - as someone who is recovered - I can tell you that things are a lot different. But yet again, I have a tiny secret for you. I still do not LOVE food. I don't day dream about food, nor do I necessarily get excited when I am about to eat my favourite foods. But you know what? It doesn't matter whether or not I LOVE food. Because I like food. I understand that I need it to be healthy. I try my best to try new foods, to enjoy a variety of foods, etc. I can sit down and eat a meal and not think about the scale. I can see food in front of me and not get frightened. I am healthy. And that is all that matters.

So, please take a look at the NEDIC blog! I hope this message brings you some wisdom and hope: recovery from any illness is possible. I was SO ill, and here I am today, alive, healthy, and a published author, as well as with my blog. I am defying all odds that said that I wouldn't recover; that I would never live a healthy and happy life. 'Loving food' is not necessarily important now - as long as I can eat what I need to be healthy and well. Will it ever happen? Maybe, maybe not. Regardless, I am recovered, healthy, and strong. And I am eating my meals, keeping my body in shape and well. That is true recovery. And I will never ever look back at my days of being ill and regret my decision to recovery. It was the hardest thing I ever did in my entire life. And it was definitely worth it.

45 comments:

  1. Excellent thought

    Eric

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  2. Yes Marina
    Sometimes our illness twist us, but We recover with more strength, power and learning to cope and defend our existence.
    Excellent post

    Magaly

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  3. You Marina please take pride how far you have come.
    No one can believe
    Wonderful

    See the blessings of complete recovery
    Mary
    Mississauga

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  4. For years I did not enjoy foods when I was very sick but as you said slowly this got better day after day and now I feel completely normal enjoy foods and looking forward for my meals and caring much more about my health and making sure getting enough.

    Recovered ED survivor

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  5. Your blog made me knowledgeable about ED but still I can not absorb the fact that food is an enemy to those who has ED while normal people is a dear friend to foods and parties and all celebration events
    Now with your blog teaching I can see how the disease change the brain.

    Jack

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  6. Definitely worth it.
    The best ever decision one has to make is to recover knowing the hard work to sustain this recovery.
    Congratulation to you and me for complete recovery and thank you

    Nanraj

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  7. You made recovery possible.
    You are the best!!!


    Hanka

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  8. I am sure your writing and your thoughts are beneficial to all NEDIC's readers.

    Holland

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  9. Your recovery set a role model for all those who are ill to pursue same.

    Carlos

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  10. I am very happy for you and I love what I read and very excited to hear good news about you especially about recovery and maintain excellent health as you know you have become my role model and guide.
    My daughter now loves food and is doing o k thanks to you.

    JP( a thankful mother)

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  11. I wish you all the best in health and life and one day you will love and enjoy all aspects of life including foods

    Gustavo

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  12. You are a talented writer and I learn and enjoy reading it and I know how hard it is to recover but very much worse it.
    Without good health, we can not achieve any thing.
    Way to go.

    Kapoor

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  13. I know many of those who happen to be ill do not love foods for sometime but soon after recovery their body will soon regain all the ability.
    I do not know why this is hard in ED.

    C J(RN and CDE)

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  14. Congratulations .

    larivierre

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  15. Very proud of you my friend

    Clorado

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  16. We eat to live and to be able to maintain our immune system. I pray you are able to love food as well .

    Zak

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  17. Hey marina
    You recovered and that is the most important.
    Tell me about how hard to love the food when you are ill and not knowing you are ill and you feel food is enemy.
    Good news you and me recovered and now eating .
    Well done

    Keep up.

    Anne

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  18. Take pride in and feel proud of your decision to recover and maintain health and set an example to others.

    Jenn
    Welland

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  19. WOW you are NEDIC writer.
    VIVE le recovery.

    Pierrette

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  20. Excellent motivation to continue eating even when you do not like food as you believe in health and recovery.
    What a role model

    Saroosh

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  21. My little experience with my patients who are sick or recovering is to have no appetite and not eager to eat or no taste of favourite foods but they tell me they like to feel hungry ,have appetite and able to eat as normal and always asking me when this will happen.
    I assure them and I will tell them soon will happen and when I see them for follow up visit in the outpatient clinic,they are much better and eating and enjoying their meals.
    I wish you and all ED survivors , one day you will be tasting and enjoying your meals
    For now I support you perseverence to continue eating and making sure getting enough .

    Penny
    Med student

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  22. Gerry admires this post and all comments.
    Wonderful Marina


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  23. This is really good and honest admission about ED survivor and how despite recovery still not able to love food as normal .I am sure slowly but surely you will and for now the best you are doing is making sure eating enough and taking food even if you feel like medicine.
    WOW.

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  24. Your admission of not liking food and still eating enough deserve lots of Credits as not a lot of people have that courage to admit.

    Lenus

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  25. Raja is happy for on going publication.

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  26. Keep up the excellent recovery .
    It worth billions

    Rodica

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  27. Congratulations for all publications

    Shady

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  28. I also believe your recovery worth the whole globe and your publication deserve big honour.

    Sasha

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  29. I like this post and I happy to hear about publications

    Ivanka

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  30. Your perseverance to continue eating all your meals even you do not like food is very appreciated.

    Gordana

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  31. Congrat

    kresina

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  32. Your personal experience in this blog is helping many others.
    I take my hat off for you.

    Dorota

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  33. Even though ED twisted you so harsh but never affected your spirit, determination and your will and power and you made your own recovery and come cleaner and stronger and set example to others.
    Thumbs up

    Jasmeet

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  34. A lot of good stuff I read on this blog but mostly I am impressed with the complete recovery and good attitude.
    Despite my busy schedule I am trying continue read your blog.
    With my humble respect.

    Muhammad

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  35. Many publications for someone who deserves.
    Congratulations

    Huzayef

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  36. I give you lots of credit for maintaining your good health,feeding your self and defeating ED despite still you do not love foods.
    I always till my clients "fake it till you make it"
    Of course I mean smile and happiness but also about loving and enjoying foods.
    Please Marina continue fake loving foods till you really make it and you love foods.


    Kelly W

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  37. Take lots of pride in how far have you come.

    Zeesman

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  38. I agree with comments re you take pride in how far you have come.

    Eric

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  39. Life sometimes squeezes us and spin us but ultimaely we pull through and come out cleaner and stronger.
    Marina is a an excellent example.

    Mubayed

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  40. To eat all your meals even when you feel in love with food means your will prevails and your power dominate over any ED blackmailing.

    Huge success Marina


    Kadesha

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  41. Have a good day and be proud of your self.

    Pyuish

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  42. I am lucky to come acrosss your blog.

    Hernandez

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  43. You are showing every body how to achieve what you want as long as you believe in it.
    I learnt a lesson

    Cindrella

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  44. Marina this post impressed me the most as I never forget the professor who taught me there is a difference between a disease and illness.
    The diease is physical but the illness include physical ,emotional,social,spiritual,finance ,support ,job and how all impact how the person feel.
    You are a teacher a head of my teacher.

    Nagy

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  45. This is the holistic apprach to health.
    Cheers

    Kapoor

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