Canadian weather has me confused. Two weeks ago, I was boiling. I was eating ice cream as fast as I could before it melted in the sweltering heat. I had my air conditioner on, and I was pulling out my capris and t-shirts, fully prepared to wear summer clothes from now on. It was around 37 degrees Celsius one day...quite hot!
Then, this past weekend was chilly. As in, the temperature was only around 10 degrees. EXCUSE ME?! I had to reluctantly turn off my air conditioner, and pull out my spring coat. What is going on here? What happened to the warm weather?! I mean, it is June 1st today...shouldn't it be hot outside already?!
Well, regardless of the weather, at least the 'season' of summer is here. That means no more school...for now! My graduation is coming up next week, and I am super excited. I cannot believe that I have completed my degree.
I think back to my first year of university...when I thought that I might never make it alive. I didn't realize how ill I was...but I was pretty sick. Things got worse before they got better, and soon enough. I was on life-support in the intensive care unit (ICU). I did not think that I would ever complete my degree, or live a happy life again. And at times, I didn't want to live, anyways. I wanted to die. I had no reason inside of me to live...the illness had taken everything joyous out of my life.
Then I became determined to get better...but this alone was more difficult that I had imagined it to be. Eating again seemed strange to me...I did not know how I could sit at a table multiple times a day and look at food...and then eat it. And honestly, I don't know how I did it. The support and love of all my friends and family certainly encouraged me to fight. The strength of God helped me find courage in the face of obstacles. You, dear readers, helped me stay strong, even when I wanted to give up.
Fast-forward to today, when I am graduating in a week. I still cannot believe how far I have come. God is so good. He used my pain for the good. I have learned so much about myself throughout this journey. I have become wiser and stronger. I have learned to accept challenges as they come, knowing that one day, I will realize how they have helped me become a better or stronger person. I have learned to keep my body healthy, and my mind comfortable. I have learned to cherish every moment with my friends and family members. I have written a book in hopes that it will help others who are struggling. I have tried my best to become a better person, one who embraces life with optimism, strength, motivation, and love.
One thing that still makes me anxious is the future. What will it hold? What will happen in my life? Will I find a job? Have my own family? Make a decent amount of money? Continue to help others? Feel happy and content? Travel the world? Learn new skills? Take up new hobbies?
I don't know what the future holds. But I know who holds my future: God. And He has never left me...my past is evidence of this. I know He has my future planned...and His plans are always the best. And I know that regardless of where life takes me, I have the support and love of my friends, family, community, and readers...and that's all I need. I am confident that whatever path my life takes, it will work out for the best. All I pray for is that I can use my knowledge, skills, and experiences to help others, to give back to all those who are in need. To continue to learn and develop into a person who can truly make a difference.
I don't know what my future holds...but I'll find out one day! Life is like a roller-coaster - it has ups and downs. I might as well enjoy the ride!